I have always had a form of depression or anxiety in my life. I can’t remember not feeling like all of this is pointless, just existing is exhausting. It’s been so dire at some points, that I’ve had to go on antidepressants and have Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) in my second year at university, because … Continue reading The Day I Realised I Was Finally Happy, At Age 23
I'm tired, I think. I'm not sure anymore if I'm tired or slowly giving up. And I’m confused, whether I’m okay with that, or if I want to fight it. Because the truth is, I like it, I'm used to it, I find comfort in it, comfort in the darkness. And as it consumes me, … Continue reading – Has It Really Come To This
You can get pregnant, and force the man to be a father, but you can’t force yourself, to not force people, into something they don’t want to be. You call words of, ‘selfish’ and ‘stubborn’, and yet if you looked in the mirror, you’d see that the words don’t sting your tongue, because your body … Continue reading Good Parenting
I do not care about You. I do not care about Your daughter. I do not care about Your brother. I do not care about the people who raised You. I do not care about the people who love You. I do not care about the man who delivers Your post. I do not care … Continue reading I Do Not Care
Perhaps, as it seems I am in fact alone alone in this world alone in my room alone in my mind totally and utterly alone and you stand there with an army behind you and family roots holding you steady telling me I'm not alone when I'm trapped in the cage of my own mind … Continue reading Perhaps,
I always thought that I’d be okay when I die, that I’d be okay with not existing once I close my eyes, that the thought of everything I’ve ever done would be gone in an instant wouldn’t scare me. But I was wrong. A couple weeks ago I came back to England after visiting family … Continue reading Two Weeks Ago I Accepted Death
how can you explain to someone the collapse of your mind when the only breakdown they know is seeing someone cry after they’ve made their feeling as worthless as the words they spoke ~ 'Breakdown'